Letter from Mother

My mom emailed me. Part of her email goes as follows:

I am glad you called me this morning . I really enjoy chat with you for 2 hours .  I wanted to saying   I am  sorry .  I did not mean to hurting your feeling  I use Esl to communcation with you .   I am pse sign language .  so I will try my best to talk to you ASl sign language ok .  Please forgive me ok . I love you .Because you dont assiocate deaf community .  I thought you are like your Dad .   Because Your father dont using asl sign language to communcation with me .  Please forgive me ok .

I  dont know why God create me . I am Black and Deaf .  I am suffer . I dont know why God create that my Daughter is not Deaf . I wish I have a Deaf Daughter .  But I am glad you Learned sign Language when you were 3 years old . Because  my realtive refused to learning sign language . I was so fraustrated with my realtive . They left me out During thanksgiving Dinner and Christmas  too . I dont want to involved with hearing realtive anymore .

I have mixed feelings about this email. The one that stands out the most... is anger. I have been trying to not seethe with anger every time I think of this email, but it has proven to be futile.

Vlog: Setback?

So, I have my camera. I have Sony Vegas Movie Maker Platinum Pro. I have everything I need to make an awesome vlog complete with subtitles. But... I have a problem: I am camera shy (?).

For one... I am/was bilingual. I originally wanted to do my vlog in ASL. However... I don't know how people will react. I am worried that people will make assumptions about me and will get offended. Also, I don't think I want to broadcast my face. Sure, I can use a very effective way to mask my identity completely while still being able to retain clear facial expression. But.... I think eventually someone will find out who I really am. And things will backfire.

I thought about just doing a blog in voiced English with subtitles. But I still would have the issue of broadcasting myself on the internet. At least with a regular blog with text only I can stay fairly anonymous. If I start a vlog, I will expose myself to the world. And I will likely be subject to ridicule and undue hatred.

So... my worries and fears are stopping me from creating my vlog. For now, I think I will just stick with this blog, until I figure something out.